Peace has to be Everywhere or it will be Nowhere

This is 22- August-2017, Malee Kenworthy my American friend and Development director of Zephaniah Women education and empowerment Foundation has sent me a link, in which US President Mr Donald Trump says that they cannot be silent anymore about safe heavens of terrorists in Pakistan, He might send troops to Pakistan soon.

I teach at Zeph center ten hours a day and it does not make me tired or angry infect I love to be among my students, their interest in learning, their laughters, their involvement in studies and skills, their changed and positive thoughts give me new energy every day to do more for them.

Today in our English language learning class we were discussing on play grounds , one of the new girls said ‘’ is this sentence correct if I say that Sachin Tandulkar( Indian Cricket Start) is crying on his team’s defeat from Pakistani Cricket Team and I am happy to see him crying ?

But another girl spoke up loud and said listen to me Anam we are Zeph Girls we are peace makers we should not even talk which has even a slight hate for other nations, we should always talk about love for each other no matter where someone is, we are born to give hope so let us talk about hope, let us make all sentences which have love and respect for everybody on this earth.

I did appreciate her a lot and I felt proud to be their teacher, it took me so many years, my childhood and youth was spent to achieve this task but I have done it finally.

I had to face a lot of problems, every day I would have to face threats, People would make stories about me, they would do propaganda against me, they tried to kill me twice, they would slap on my face and would harass me whenever I would go out of home, they would through pieces of bricks on my students but I never stopped, as much they created problems for me that much I used my power to push them away and to make my own way to achieve my goal of teaching and empowering  girls in Pakistan.

Because whenever they tried to stop me I realized that there is more need of light, the light of hope, education, and women empowerment, so I would put more energy to transform their darkness into light and I did it.

Many years before when I took this initiative I was alone and there were many who would feel proud in killing me.

Now although I have bigger threats because now I am more famous but I am not alone, now all those voices are there to speak for me, to whom I gave a voice through pens, their hearts beat with me to whom I gave light for a brighter future though books, their eyes cry for me to whom I gave my time.

Those are my students who are now successful, educated and empowered women and all that happened because I did not shout on them who shouted on me, I did not try to kill them who tried to kill me and my family.

I do not deny about bad people in Pakistan but if all Pakistanis were bad then why I am alive till today? we Pakistanis are not terrorists only a group of People are doing this horrible thing but what about my girls who love the whole world, who just want to get education, who call themselves Doctors of the society( Peace Makers) what about those who want peace and who have never hurt anyone, what about those who love Americans for their good deeds? Will  Mr President create so many problems for all those people too who are not terrorists?

If I a woman who belongs to a Minority of Pakistan, who also faced so many problems but still changed thoughts of hundreds and thousands, why not you Mr President why not you ? How can you bring peace though guns and bombs? How? Hate will only multiply the hate and love will only multiply the love I have proved it through twenty years of my life as a Christian education activist in Pakistan.

Bombs and guns cannot differentiate between good and bad people but we human beings can do this.

Peace is not a property of any one, no one can make the peace their prisoner by using force, Peace is universal it has to be everywhere or it will be nowhere.


Girls also get Hungry

At Zeph Center center we are not only giving free education but we teach many types of skills to women so that they can earn by doing work and can support their families.

At age of thirteen when I took this initiative there was no financial support from anywhere, my mother was a laborer and my father was on bed after an accident so to run my free school I had to start doing a job for 8 hours a day and six days a week at age of 15, which I kept doing until May-2017.

Since I have left my job I spend ten hours a day at Zeph center, I not only see all the management things but I spend time with girls and teach them.

I love our little girls, when they play in the center and run from here to there I feel like they are butterflies, their laughter gives a new life to the center I can see from their faces that they do not have any fear of anything in my presence because they know their spiritual mother is there who wants to see them happy and educated.

So although sometimes we have to do some meeting on serious matters but we never bother them while they are playing, they have really cute and have strange duties for me, when I came back from South Korea in July 2017 after completing my Leadership Training from EWHA Women University, they called me near to them and commanded ‘’ Sister Zeph we do not like our teachers, they are not good they want us to study but we like to pay all the time, plz fire them from their jobs rights now’’. When they get angry with each other they come to me and say’’ Sister Zeph that friend of mine is not talking to me’’ so I have to convince angry friend to be friend again which does not take more than a few second because they forget about their fights immediately and start playing together again, I sing with them, I dance with them and I play with them.

While talking, walking, eating even while sleeping in my dreams I make plans and think of their future.

I love to take photos with them and especially when they are doing something, I want to capture every moment of their lives which they spend at Zeph Center.

Most of them are unwanted children because their parents wanted to try to have a son but those girls took birth in their house.

Today I saw one four years old girl, she was sitting silent, she was holding a book, I wanted to take her photo, when I asked her that I want to make a photo of her, she was trying to make a pose which could hide her tear off pant, her pant was tear off from many places, also shirt, she was wearing a stuff which is unbearable to wear in such a hot day of summer, I looked at her face , she was looking week and sick I asked why are you looking sad my child, are you hungry, did you eat something and she said No.

I went to my house brought food for her and she ate it all so quickly now she not hungry any more.

But I went on our roof, sat in a corner and I cried because I can feel what it means to be hungry, I went to same situation when my father got injured and my mother had no skill nor education to have a source of income to feed us, I can feel the pain of being hungry, she was in the center since four hours and I could not realize she was hungry, I could feel how she would have been feeling without food, she was holding a book but how could she study without eating food and without wearing comfortable cloths.

They are seven sisters and two brothers, father is a laborer and has three children from his second wife too, and this little girl was produced in desire to have a son so now she does not have even enough food and cloths because she is a girl.

But I have one question since then in my mind that what is more important food or education? Can she focus of studies while she is starving? For how long will girls be treated like this because they were not born as boys?

When parents will understand, Girls also need food, Girls also get hungry ?